In memory of my mother: A mother is someone to shelter and guide us, to love us, whatever we do, with a warm understanding and infinite patience.
The death of my mother, Linda Vaughan, has left me with a sense of abandonment and even panic that has caught me by surprise. I feel like a chapter in my life has closed and part of my past sealed forever. This experience has wounded me oh so greatly. My mother will not see the rest of my growing up.
I realize that the first step towards moving on is acceptance. My feelings are so intense that I ride them like a wave when they come. I'm overwhelmed with sadness and pray that over time, it will not always be there.
A great saying has stuck with me...."The key thing to remember is that bond with the lost parent continues. It's about loving, not someone who's present, but someone who's absent."
This marks the first Mother's Day without my mommy, Linda. It is going to be a difficult and bittersweet one to say the least with her absent and I present celebrating with my own one-year-old son.
I miss you, Mommy, more than I can say.
May 1, 2012